I always feel out of place in the masjid. Is that bad? I always see all these other girls in abayas and pretty scarves and it's obvious that they're all full time hijabis (unlike me) and everyone looks like they know exactly what they're doing there and finds their seats, and I'm standing there like "Mom! Can I pray now?!" ...Maybe that's an exaggeration (or not).
I feel like it's really obvious that I don't know what I'm doing. This may or may not be due to my inherent inability to properly tie a scarf around my head. But at least my hair gets covered (mostly). That's what counts, right? Apparently not, because every time I leave one of these khutbahs I feel like a terrible person. But I'm pretty sure that's supposed to happen.
And then on the ride home we were talking about the lecture, and somehow the conversation turned into a fight over which one of us is more pious, and how my sister and I need to stop asking for things "Because starving kids in Africa would die for one tenth of what we have and we should feel very grateful."
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